no matter how much we cry, our lives still slip by

seriously, what the fuck.

i can sleep for 12 hours and get up feeling more tired than i was when i went to bed.

ive had a headache for three days now because i've been thinking too much.

2 nights ago i actually got a nosebleed because i couldn't stop bleeding.

my dreams are so fucked up, i think they're real soo much that when i wake up im still not sure if im sleeping.

i need to go get stoned.

i need andrea, and she needs me.

i have "merry xmas" carved in to my arm.

even cutting won't get me to stop thinking

I NEED TO FUCKING STOP THINKINKING

goddamnit

i wish i wasn't so thinky

i want to stop thinking

i need to stop thinking

it's killing me

i'm killing me

oh wait, im already dead.