I don't even know where to start

ok so ill just list them off as they come to me

1st day of school ws possibly the worst day of my life, i went to bed at 9:30 and woke up crying twice in the middle of the night, after taking dramamine to fall asleep.

I have pretty much no friends in any of my classes, and those i do have in my classes, they're on the other side of the the fucking room.

we won today, 28-8. I got 4 penalties (2 offsides, 2 holding), only two were accepted. I ran the ball twice, once for 4 yards, once for 14. Had one pass and one completion for 13 yards ish.

Andrea didn't show up at another one of my games.

I'm drowning in Rise Against.

I had a test in Acc English today, which i probably bombed.

I was going to kill myself last night. I don't know what stopped me.

Saturday I'm going to the Michigan game.

I think I've retreated alot since the end of the last school year, I'm not as confident, outspoken, or friendly. I've decided I've pretty much lost all of my ability to talk to girls.

My locker wouldn't open yesterday so I had to carry everything around with me. I finally got it open today, thank god.

I feel extremely lonely right now.

Last night after the second time i woke up I felt seriously like puking.

My parents are still as bitchy as ever.

My mom just had foot surgery and since she's been off of the meds, she's been as mean and demanding as possible.

I want out, now.