I ain to be your eyes

1. Is there someone you wanna date right now?
The girl i love

2. Name a quote from the song you're listening to:
uhm...
Sit tight, I'm gonna need you to keep tight, come on just snap snap snap your fingers for me. Good good, now we're making some progress come on just tap tap tap your toes to the beat

3. How is life going for you right now?
confusing, i feel like im about to snap when it comes to my anger, ive just got so much shit pent up inside of me its not funny, but atleast ive been able to write

4. Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?
well, i have a few secrets, but no one that doesnt lready know them doesnt need to know them

5. What was the reason you last cried?
Emo mood swings

6. Ever had the opposite sex over when no one was home?
yeah

7. What is your favorite fruit?
cactus fruit when it's deseaded

8. What is the most important thing in any relationship?
the ability to stick through good and bad

9. What's the song that makes you cry?
give it all by rise against more specifically:
"So please believe your eyes, scrafice, is not what we had in our minds"

10. Do you miss someone?
Andrea, elise, nat, sahana, teri, etc.

11. Who?
see the previously stated names

12. Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
no, because the bottom keeps moving down

13. Do you trust people easily?
only if i have to, but i have been known to throw my trust at people

14. Where is one place you want to visit?
uhm... anywhere not in my house is good

15. Do you freak when people hug you?
only if its really REALLY unexpected, I'll gladly hug anyone that i dont think has a hidden needle with gonomonociphaherpalaids on it.

16. Are you a tease?
only when she teased first

17. What made you happy today?
WRITING oh my god i felt like so good after i wrote two songs in 6th hour, I would've wrote more had robert not interrupted me asking him to write smut for him

18. When was the last time you cried?
last night

19. What color shirt are you wearing?
white/brown

20. How long is your hair?
sexy

21. How long have you been friends with your best friend?.
I have many, tom: 3 years now, all my other 2 years or less

22. Last thing you drank?
water, gatorade

23. Are you happy right now?
not especially, i have to go to my psych in 15 mins and i got a headache and im tired as fuck

24. Does someone have a crush on you?
quite truthfully, i think there could be 2 or 3 girls with crushes on me not counting andrea, i know that sounds a little stuck up for myself, but after having 2 people "fall in love" with me while i was trying to get with their best friend i know atleast some warning signals

25. Do you have a crush on someone?
if a crush is love than yes

26. If someone who didn't know you had to guess your name, what hint would you give them?
"It's not ment for our generation"

27. Anything important you need to tell someone?
use a rubber????

28. Will you ever tell them?
if they dont read this, probably not

29. Do you have big plans and goals for your life?
go to med school, become a psychiatrist, open up my own clinic for clinically depressed kids/tennagers/young adults

30. Last person you had a deep and meaningful convo with?
the voices in my head

31. What was the last thing you highlighted?
i think it was my fingernail cuz im sexy like that

32. Name something you have in common with all your siblings:
if u add my dad in as well we all hate my mom

33. In one word describe yourself.
contradicting

34. What was the last thing you ever got grounded for?
having people over without anyone else home

35. How many TVs do you have in your house?
2

36. Have you ever passed out from being drunk?
not yet ^^

37. How many kids do you plan on having?
2.5

38. If you could kiss anyone, who would it be?
andrea, then god, cuz i would live forever

40. When is the last time you went out of the state?
oh god..... 7th grade?

41. Have you ever had a true-friend?
yeah, shes called andrea, tam, nat, elise, etc.

42. Do you crack your knuckles?
YES! and my wrists and my toes and my ankles, it's loud and ill probably die someday because of it

43. Are you ticklish?
yesh, but only a few people have found my ticklish spots on my body and i think most of them have forgotten

44. Have you ever felt not good enough?
do humans ever feel "good enough"? if we did, why would we continue to work to get better?

45. Generally, in life, what makes you happy?
certain, not so legal things, and making people laugh, i love making people laugh

46. Can you do anything crazy with your tongue?
not especially, but some girls would disagree o.0

47. What's something you want for your birthday?
there's this rise against dvd thats out that i want

48. Are you more independent or dependent?
both? depending on my mood and where i am in life, im fine by myself but other people make me better i think

49. What is one thing you miss about your past?
not my weight, not my life, just last year i miss knowing everyone and having good teachers

50. What is something you learned about yourself recently?
I need to cry a lot more, i need to lift more, im not good enough, a 3.89 gpa is considered sucky, i cant handle myself, my own mind corrupts itself, i may be schitzophrenic, i keep tearing myself down inside, i work too much, i sleep not enough, i need an outlet for all my pent up anger.