DAMN IT

ok so i have to continue packing and filling out info for camp which i go to tomorow (see you all sunday or whenever)


so this is really quick

i've been feeling like everytime i open my mouth i get my head bitten off. every time i say a sentence commenting on something or saying something another person has to slam me down. I feel like im being used just as the kid everyone can laugh at and make fun of or be harshly honest with.

and i gotta say





it hurts, alot.

so if i ever stop talking or phase out or mumble off it means i realized that if i said another word something mean and hurtful would be said in response, so i dont say anything.



of to fill out more stoooped paypir werc

blahh

A man of steel perched on a ledge,
Percariously balanced with a sledge,
Lands a blow of painfully silent echoes,
A snake built of a thousand throe,
Lends in to help the woe,
And together the pain grows,
A rat wiith a mouth of bane,
Breaks again in to my brain,
And spreads it's living death,
And even at the smallest light,
All this pain gives up it's fight,
And lets me take a breath,

hedaches suck assssss

im sorry i didn't help out today much

im sore all over with a headacheall over a a mood that would destroy the berlin wall

must be that time of month xD

see y'all sometime other than the last day of the spree

Im so sorry for all the shit ive done

look, im sorry if it seems like im forgetting about you, and im sorry if im making it seem like i cant see it the way you are...

but fact of the matter is the money's already in, i could probably get away with not going maybe one day every two weeks. I'm only really GONE for like 2 weeks and a couple of weekends, the rest is weight training, polevault, and work (possibly).

even still, polevault is from 3-6, that means we have from seven on. and thats only on mondays and wednesdays.

football is 9-11, so i'll see you for all afternoon on fridays.

tuesdays and thursdays are completely open.

and saturdays and sundays vary.

i love you. I dont ever want to lose you. and if i get the job at bates, you can visit me quite often.

that email hurt....


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on a lighter note
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i carved/filed/widdled a new one, two holes for air! and nice and round and shallow