Because you asked

1: I try too much to be funny, I do it too cover up myself. If I can keep people laughing they don't have enough time to think about how fucked up I am and why I do what I do.

2: I am an attention whore. I love and hate the spotlight. The nervousness kills me and I don't want to be found out, but I love being in the spotlight when I can hide behind something.

3: I always have an excuse. I'll not do something or say something just to save my own ass and not give a shit about anyone else.

4: I say I don't care and that other people can fuck off. But really, it hurts me when I am not friends with everyone. It hurts when people tell me they hate me and never give me a reason.

5: I get depressed easily, too easily.

6: I like being depressed, I like that pain in my stomach, I like the extra voice in my head telling me to go kill myself, I like horrifying other people with my stories of the stuff I have done while depressed.

7: I'm too dependent on drugs, sleeping and relaxing with them.

8: I hate my parents I would kill them in an instant.

9: I am all talk.

10: I am terrified of being hit in football.

To cause some sleep and to stop my weep

fukcing a

i just had a post

oh well it deleted it

heres it in short

new pr at 9'

need to work on pre reqs and job application

need to spend more time with andrea

need sleep aids and anti depressents

life sucks