I'm so lonely

When people recognize me in the hallways it startles me.

I need money.

I need people to hang out with so when you ask me what I did to say I can have something more than "nothing."




I love you,


Maybe I'll see you today

She don't use buuter, she don't use cheese, she doesn't use, anything; she uses vaseline

I need someone to tell me what I'm doing is ok,
That I'm not fucking everything up,
That it's not my fault,
That there'll always be someone,
That if I died today it would actually have an impact,


that what I'm seeing, feeling, thinking, is actually reality.

We run on the fumes of injustice, we'll never die with the fuel that you give us

My parents filled my tank :]

I can drive to school this week!

I got the new used album (thank you, love!)

My Eagle prject is really going to be balls out now, the deadline is hopefully the 2nd monday in november. I'm going to need a lot of help with physical labor, it's not hard, just long. (The longest part will be sanding).

We're making 100 of these (out of pine, not oak)



88 of them will be unfinished, so the families that are doing homeschooling for Catechism due to scheduling conflicts/special needs can decorate them. 12 will be finished for classrooms within St. Kenneth's social hall.

I've got to get a presentation of money/time/hours/safety/etc. by a week from tomorrow, then start working on it the week after that.

I'm estimating 3-4 days for making the 88 unfinished ones (one day for cutting out the basic template, one for rounding and sanding, and another 2 for any extra things we have to do) they're the only ones with a deadline (the 2nd monday in novemeber), the other 12 can be done whenever.

I have to get costs and somehow do a fundraiser for it. I'll probably just ask to go up to the alter in church and beg for money like all the priests I hate. But mine really is all volunteer work.

I'll need at least 2 router tables, I have one, does anyone out there know anyone else who would let me borrow it for 2 Saturdays in October?


If you're interested, please let me know. All volunteer work is appreciated!

[he] said I don't hate you, but I just want to save you, while there's still something left to save

I really have changed since I stopped smoking alone.
and started working out three times a week.
and started going to school.
even if I fail at impromptus.

but that's fine.

And I've gotten Nate to stop smoking alone as much as he was.

I agree with you now, it is kind of pathetic.

I think everyone who has ever done it can agree.

It should be social.






He's opening up to me probably more than he has to anyone since his friend Charlie.

Life is going interestingly.




(oh and we got a German assignment to pick and describe our favorite child's toy from our childhood. Over the summer I cleared out my room of my child toys, I don't even remember what I had But I kept the Hodag :D)


for more on hodags:

http://www.hodagpress.com/about.htm

Prison dehydrates me


Would anyone read a book that's told through an inmate's blog?

What would the comments say?

Think of how flexible and unused that entire section of literature is untouched.

And you wouldn't necessarily hear everything that goes on in the prison/in his/her life, just the things that s/he is allowed to write about or wants to write about.

So many different possible story arcs.

I wish I had concentration, I'd be filthy rich.

I let everyone down.

Summer is over.

I still have 125 pages of wuthering heights to read.

I feel like shit for yesterday.




There is no way you cold ever tell me that not getting online wasn't my fault. I wasn't thinking.


I'm really, truly sorry and I won't let it ever happen again. I'm sorry that it even happened once.

I'll wait for you to get online, maybe you slept better than I did.